I hate my body..

Pre baby

Post baby

That’s the same shirt. In the first photo I was 120. I got pregnant and at my heaviest towards the end was up to 165 but wasn’t worried because everyone kept saying it would “‘melt off” whatta load of BS. The first week I dropped 20 lbs like it was nothing I was so excited I thought “yes, I’ll be back to normal in a few weeks!!” Well.. it’s been almost 8 months and I’m still 143. I absolutely hate my body. I’ve never been one that worried about my weight, I didn’t dread getting dressed or trying on clothes.. I wouldn’t almost cry when I got naked to shower. I’m always tugging up on my pants to cover my belly more, I wear baggy t shirts as often as possible and if not that I’ll wear a size too big so you don’t see a whole lot. I never actually noticed how different my size is until I put these pictures side by side.. I’m disgusted. It doesn’t help that a family member had her baby two months after I had mine and she’s smaller than she was before pregnancy... I’m sorry this is long I just needed to rant. I’m trying to stay motivated and workout and eat healthy but being a first time mom with an 8 month old is not easy. Ugh. 😩😔