Life is too much

I’m a student, which means I have to learn 7 different subjects and pass them. Which for me, is the hardest thing ever. I’m mostly a C student, as I don’t take my work as seriously as I should. With this new semester starting up I decided I’m not gonna play around anymore and I’m gonna aim for Straight A’s. So, I’m putting in all this hard work, doing all of my homework which in total takes about 5-6 hours to do, and then after that I have so many other chores, and self care to do. It just feels like too much and I cannot handle it. I lost all of my closest friends and there’s so much drama at school, now the parents are involved and so is the assistant principal and deputy. I just feel like if I weren’t alive it would be for the better? I really just want to get my life figured out by its the hardest thing ever to do. I feel like there’s no hope at all and I know this seems like a typical “everyone goes through this, sweetie.”, but I just feel so alone, and I really wish I could just end it all.