Lately I’ve just been feeling so lonely.

I recently became single because of lack of responsibility from my ex.

So I now have almost two kids and raising them by myself.

Im just incredibly lonely all the time. I live with my mom but she’s focused on her new life with her fiancée and new family and I’ve tried to fit in along with them but he’s a dick(and a racist; I’m Afro Latina; uses the n word frequently and not nigga he uses the full er ending and my mom doesn’t seem to care)

The only person who’s texts me is my daughters dad for updates on Araceli and my sons dad who rarely messages me throughout the day or really even engages in the conversation at all.

Im on bedrest so I stay in the house majority of the time unless I go to the doctors or occasionally when no ones around to the store.

I just want love and support. I want to feel wanted instead of feeling like I’m transparent in this world.

Im alive but not at all living.