just a rant.

so I'm 20, pregnant with my first. it wasn't planned but we also weren't preventing. long story short, my baby is due next month and there has already been talk about wanting 2 under 2. well, my boyfriend and I were joking around at a friends house and i chanted "2 under 2, 2 under 2!!" when our friends baby mama/ girlfriend pipes up and starts going on about how i don't want that and is trying to talk me out of it. well this girl has a 2yr old who they can barely watch because they're too busy smoking weed and cigarettes in their bedroom. like i mean... i walked in to see the kid playing with a steak knife.. scary. BUT i mind my own business. anyways, when i told her i DO want 2 under 2 even though i know its a struggle she keeps going on about how i won't be able to handle it and to look at how they struggle and just would not stop. so i said something along the lines of im sorry. no. i am not going to be the parents you guys are. i think I'll be just fine. then she says , well maybe see if you can even raise your first one right. look at how our daughter is, such an angel. we did a good job and we still don't want another. LIKE STFU i watch your daughter closer than you guys do. you dont even feed her anything other than sugar and chips. like they give this girl POP in her bottle and hour before bed. also thats YOUR decision if you only want one kid. i want 2 under 2. don't try to talk me out of it.

i dont even know where i was going with this just felt good to type it out haha