can anybody relate??

for the past couple month my mom had been experiencing severe back pain we took her to doctors and they said it was degenerative spine disease.. her symptoms only got worse. 2 weeks ago I went to see her and she could barely move or breathe so I called an ambulance and had her rushed to the hospital. within 2 hours of being there the doctor came in and said your body is ate up with cancer so your already at a stage 4 and we are admitting you to help you get through this pain. My mom's not expected to make it through next week. I am so lost! my mom is my best friend I am 5 months pregnant and I need her so bad right now. She's already gone mentally. She doesn't know who she is or where she is and when she does try to talk it's just jiberish. My mom was so excited for her first grand baby. on January 5th we found out the gender and she wanted to be the first to know so she could throw me a party. I took her a gift to the hospital so we could find out together. She was so happy to know I am having a baby boy. I recorded her opening up her gift. I can't watch it right now because it breaks my heart. mom has stage 4 pancreatic cancer and it's like a wildfire within a month it has spread to her lungs liver blood lymph nodes kidneys ribs skull hips spine femur bones and muscle tissue. I am at a loss for words seeing my mom like this kills me. I know that God has blessed me with this child to teach me to have strength. My heart breaks more everyday. when mom was coherent she would rub my belly and the baby would kick more than he usually does. this is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with 😢😭