weight

does anyone ever feel like they get busy doing stuff and just avoid exercise and avoid it even though they are guilty and feel bad? I can never make myself exercise...i know it's horrible. weigh 196 at last weigh in a few days ago and am 16 yrs old and 5'3" I have horrible self esteem and I feel so unlovable and fat and ugly. I was bullied all through 8th grade (people made pig jokes) and I don't think any guy will ever love me