I need advice!

My family have always told me to live my life and focus on myself and study, and not focus on boys, because its not that important yet. But i feel so alone sometimes and people around me start to get boyfriends and girlfriends. And i dont dare to tell about boys to my family, because of what they have said and if i do they ask 1000 questions about where, how old, how...like how is he and i wanna see how he look! But i feel it so embarassing. Do anyone have any tips for what i can do or say? Because i dont want to lie to them either. I dont think its funny to be in this situation and im scared to tell them about boys. 😪 im 19 soon 20. And i have never had a boyfriend because of this. I have always told boys that i dont want a boyfriend (even if i want one) because i dont dare and im scared to tell my family.