In love with two men

I got myself in a bad situation.. I’m in love with two men . They both don’t know that I’m with someone else .. I feel so horrible I’m lying and being unfaithful to both of them . If I let go one of them I’m going to miss them a lot and feel even more sad than I am now .. they both want me to movie in with them ... ughhh I’m such a horrible person 😔😢.. I definitely don’t deserve to be with them , they deserve better than this