Relationship probs

Tyasia • Life’s what you make it ❣️

I’ve always wondered this... why do moms always be so tough on their daughters. I have such a horrible relationship with my mom sad to say. My mom is soooooo mean and harsh to me majority of the time. She’s always been this way towards me. Ever since I was small, she always yell at me, embarrass me I’m from of crowds. Whenever I have a group of my friends around she ALWAYS embarrass me and never takes up for me and show out. It never fail. The only time she’s nice is when she’s getting something from me. I’m sorry to say this, and I know this may not sit well with too many people but I love my mom because of the fact that she’s my mom but I don’t want to have nothing to do with her at all. Times when I desperately needed a mother for me emotionally she was never there for me. When I small, I remember was how my mom would call me stupid and dumb. The way my mom acted towards me over the years shaped my perspective of her and my attitude towards her. I don’t expect nothing from her, I don’t want her to do anything for me, I hate when she talks to me. I believe the fact that I never had a good relationship with her, I think is the reason why I can’t have a good relationship like I need to have with other people in my life. Which is why I can never keep friends and boyfriends. I’m 20 now, and I’m trying so hard to try and tolerate my mom. At times I honestly don’t even want to come home to face her. She’s always comparing me to other people especially my friends making me feel envy towards them. She acts so sincere towards everyone else’s daughter, but to me it’s opposite. Is anybody else in this situation and can anybody please help me to some with all this. I personally don’t want a relationship with my mom because I know for a fact she’s never changing. I dont nobody to try and convince my other wise. I’ll make sure she’s okay, but as far as having a personal relationship with her, I rather not. I remember when I was in high school she was so bad, I would literally cry every night. When she did catch me crying she would always fuss at me for crying. It’s honestly so exhausting having to sit here and pretend in public that i have a good relationship with her when I don’t.