Time for medication 😭

Been TTC for number 1 for 1 year. Had surgery to clean adhesions and polyps from my uterus in November. Other than that, all our testing has been perfect but still no BFP. I’m scheduled 2/6 to discuss starting medication. I’m sooo ready for the BFP and everything that comes after that!! Sometimes I get down in the dumps and think about all the possible reasons it’s not happening for us. Will we not make good parents? Etc. I’m just all up in my feelings tonight. I also have two cousins (one blood relation, one not) that have been ttc for over a year and the other for over 4 years. I just want us all to have our happy endings already! I never, ever imagined it would take this long. 😭😭😭