completely done!

this might be a little bit long but I could really use the support. please if you're just going to call me stupid and say the basic "leave him" please don't comment I really need support

so I've been in the hospital for 4 days and my fiance is on house arrest so he cant be here which really bums me out because I have a hard time sleeping without him

He's been acting pretty distant and doesn't text me much and doesn't ever want to call me. and its been bothering me so I have kind of been jumping down his throat every time I saw he was online or on his game simply because I miss my baby and I want his love and attention.

he got mad and told me to settle down so I did I realized that I am probably just over reacting and my hormones are just all crazy right now so I let it go and tell him to message me whenever

fast forward to about an hour ago and I clicked on my photos (which is logged in through Google) and my finances account was logged in so I was going through the photos because he's so cute and I love his face but then this folder popped up saying deleted..

so I get curious right away and I open it and recover the photos.. man my heart started racing. my nurse ran in because my heart rate was 170. she tried to calm me down and I just kept telling her that I just had a breathing treatment and that's probably what it was. meanwhile it was because there was dick pics in his camera roll that he deleted and I never received them so i know they weren't for me

so I called him he didn't answer of course. I went back into the photos and the pictures are gone!! I forgot that when you recover a photo the phone gets a notification that a photo has been recovered 😭😭 so I had no evidence.

Now I know what my fiances dick looks like, and I know what his hands look like, and I know what my bedroom looks like!! when i finally got a hold of him he said his friend sent it to him and he only saved it to prank his other friends..

First of all it wouldn't have been in his camera roll if that was the case. second why would that even be a prank? Third I know that mans body head to toe. and I know my bedroom. I'm not stupid so I told him I wasn't buying it and if he's honest and admits to what he did and when I get home he shows me everything then it won't be as bad.

he just told me "I'm going to sleep we will talk in the morning" so this clearly means he needs time to think of a new lie that's more believable but jokes on him because I can find exactly what I need to find as soon as I get home.

I'm honestly so hurt im in the hospital to ensure that our baby is okay and trying to get better so we can have a healthy baby and he's cheating on me? I do everything for this man. EVERYTHING. I never ask for anything in return financially or sexually. I feel so betrayed its ridiculous.

I love him more than anything in the world and I can't imagine my life without him. but I also don't want to have to look over my shoulder every 5 seconds to make sure I'm not being cheated on. I guess since he had the opportunity to do it and I wasn't there he thought he'd get away with it

I know the smart thing to do is to leave but I love him so much I just don't have it in me. I'm 16 weeks pregnant and I am not strong enough to leave. im also not strong enough to stay. I feel so stuck.

PS. this isn't the first questionable thing he's done. He's lied to me a lot before. he told me when we first got together that he was a virgin 3 months later we found out his ex was 5 months pregnant with his kid. also he's flirted with other girls and made fake facebook profiles to talk to other girls.

please help me