Making her feel perfect again after our loss *long post*

Hey all,

I wanted to ask on here how I can give my wife a later honeymoon with me, since our actual wedding day was marked with grief.

I'll explain - We booked out wedding a month or so before the actual day as it was only a small one. Come the week before she had a migraine on and off for the better part of a week.

We were 12 weeks at this point, and we went to the doctors and we had no FHB.

We had a missed miscarriage at 10+3 weeks of growth.

The doctor gave us pills for it to take overnight. This was the day before our wedding. We decided not to cancel as we had wanted this wedding together.

Overnight the embryonic sac itself passed and we thought all was fine (as fine as it could be) and the wedding went so well. The biggest smiles I have ever seen on her face.

However after we were both too tired to go on honeymoon at a hotel, so we came home.

Over the next two weeks she had bleeding on and off. It got to the stage where I had to speed my car to ER with her as she had passed out in the shower after passing very large clots. She soaked through 3 pads in 10 minutes. I have never been more afraid in my whole life as I was that day, but I tried to keep it together for her, for us.

A few visits to ER later after the first two doctors were incompetent and told us to "take panadol and rest" since the bleeding slowed down since. I demanded they do something to look into the issue as the clots were not regular at all.

We had an US done, and it showed that the placenta had only partially been removed, and was bleeding openly into the womb. They scheduled her in first thing for a D+C which went perfectly.

Everything now is okay as it could be given circumstances, and I'm just so happy to still have the love of my life here. But I really want her to have had a good honeymoon, as she (rightly so) feels as though she missed out.

I really want her to feel as loved as she is to me, and we are considering doing a second bigger wedding (first was a courthouse one) with 100 or so family guests. We plan this for within the next two years and we will of course have a honeymoon then.

But for now - how can I make her realise that it was still perfect for me to just be married to her, and that I am forever grateful that I woke up and found her in the shower? I will always be thankful that she is still here, and that we made it.