Heartbroken 😞

Sarah • Married, mama to Ezra 🌈 , Emilia 🌈,and 👼 👼 👼

We tried and tried and finally after 8 months, we were pregnant!!

I went in at 6 weeks and this is what we saw. Tiny dot, and no heartbeat yet. We were told to come back in a week and a half and surely there would be a heartbeat. We were probably just too early they said.

Fast forward to 7 weeks 4 days, and there still isn’t a heartbeat. The words “blighted ovum” were what they said. I’m 24, healthy, having my first child, why is this happening to me? About a million questions filled my head and my heart.

I had to take two rounds of cytotec and I’m still suffering the miscarriage. Friends and family just avoid talking to me because they don’t know what to say, and I can’t say I’m blame them. Others have said “well at least there wasn’t a baby youre losing”, or “just relax, you got pregnant once, you can do it again.”

I’m becoming a jealous person and I hate it. To all you mommas who have experienced loss, I’m with you. I feel your hurt.

We are waiting until March or April to begin trying again. I’m so nervous it’s going to be another long 8 months, but I have faith that it will happen again.

Tell me your stories, how did you get past this broken feeling? How long did it take you to conceive ?

God Bless ❤️