I now realize! ( sorry its long)

Before becoming a mom/pregnant I thought the way your body looked was everything! If I wasn’t skinny I wasn’t enough to myself. My body image was everything to me. Crop tops and skin tight jeans was my fashion! But now being pregnant at almost 35 wks I found it hard at accepting my body and the marks that come with being pregnant! I cried at the first site of my first little stretch mark!. In the beginning it was hard to gain weight (due to just being prego. I wasn’t starving myself!) as I got better with my pregnancy keeping water and foood down became easier but the less weight I would gain really hurt me. I almost felt like I was a bad mom Bc I wasn’t getting as “big” as everyone around me was (them being close in pregnancy as me). I felt like I wasn’t looking “healthy” enough to be pregnant. My stretch marks started coming more and more. Places I wished they never appeared too and fast! I tried everything people told me and nothing seemed to help! I would cry to my fiancé bc I didn’t feel beautiful in my mom body. Today I got out the shower and looked in the mirror and my 34wks and 6 day Mom body and I felt guilty for hating it before. I am growing a little person in me. Who’s half me and half the man I love. I shouldn’t hate these changes and just accepted and learn to love myself because of what my body is creating! The journey of becoming a mom is both physically and mentally challenging. But well worth it.❤️💕. Positive vibes to you ladies ❤️ you are all beautiful!