So I’m on my third pregnancy. First two were miscarriage all in the last year. My boyfriend of three years is starting to worry me a lot more. He just got his own car. Before we always just shared my car. He also just started a new job. Well the past week I’ve been finding stuff. First day, it was a makeup brush in the passenger seat.. he said he used that to clean his exhaust... next day it was half empty perfume.. he said he got it from the back of the store he works at cause it was confiscated... next day on his white shirt there’s makeup smudged from the collar on to the lower part of the sleeve... he claimed a girl at work just hugged him... he works at Walmart so he has to wear that vest that covers the top of the shoulder so that doesn’t really make sense... I just don’t know what to do or believe.. I’m just trying to stay positive and not start fights because I can’t stress and risk this pregnancy... I’ve been through so much bs with him and I don’t know how much more I can handle.. I was living on my own but after my lease was up he had me move in with him because he didn’t think I should be living by myself... so I can’t just leave because he had me stop working two jobs so I could have time with him so now I’m not financially stable to get out on my own... oh and he also has another baby that’s due this month and that’s weighing on me a lot as well... I can’t exactly be mad at him on that one because all three of us tried a relationship all together but he lost feelings for her and told her he was gonna leave her and just be with me but she went crazy and started saying she had ovarian cancer and didn’t need to take her bc so she stopped and bam she got pregnant.. found out she lied about the cancer all together... but it’s really all making it hard for me to stay positive.. I have no family here and can’t really have a social life... I just need to find some things to do to keep me sane. I’m sorry this went longer than I thought it would but it just feels good to vent😔