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Ttc so frustrating!!

Joeleane • Fri, Feb 09 • Every day is another struggle, but we know our dream of having a family will come true. Six years trying fifteen losses, and done iuis and IVf. But we shall not fail.

Why in God’s name is it so easy for some people to make and have a baby. Some of these women don’t want a baby they can’t take care of a baby, but here they are popping them out like I chew gum!

I take care of everyone’s children five days a week. I love my students to death; they may drive me crazy but I love them. But we can’t have our own baby! We can’t bring someone into this world to love and shower with all kinds of attention, intelligence, manners, respect, toys, books, love, and a family! When is it going to be my turn?

Most days I am so happy for people, but every time I get that stupid negative test I just want to scream. And here one of my friends is pregnant with baby number two (at least she can take care of said baby and she is a good person) and another just gave birth to her third baby fifth between both of them and yet they can’t even take care of the ducking kids that they have. I know being jealous and envoys is wrong! But after having a miscarriage I am so sad! I can’t talk to anyone about how I am feeling because they don’t really get it! I would be in my second trimester now! But no instead I’m sitting here crying because of another fucking negative pregnancy test!