Does anyone else have a legit fear of doctors but want a baby so bad? I’m terrified of anyone medical. I have alot of paramedic friends and they are totally okay when they arent in “work mode” I love them, but as soon as I see them in work mode it freaks me out. They come over to our house alot during their shifts (this is totally okay in our county. The medics are allowed to leave the station as long as they have radio service) and whenever I see the ambulance pull in our drive way I panic for a minute. Then I’m okay while they are in our house just being normal people. But if they even have medical gloves in their pockets and I see it bothers me so much and I don’t even know why. I know they would never in their life hurt me so why do their gloves bother me?! My husband had to go to the doctor a few weeks ago for a check up and it was awful for me wanting him even get his blood pressure taken. I hate having this fear and I try to get over it but exposing myself to these things. Normally I would of stayed in the car during his visit but I went in for three different visits in the last month. I spend time around our medics and the ambulance. My grandma has been in the hospital 8-13 times in the last 2 years all in the emergency room and surgery, I have exposed myself to that and I’m STILL afraid. I’ve been in the ER with various people over the last two years when normally I would be vomiting in the parking lot. So it’s definitely got better but ONLY because I know none of that sruff was for me. Sure I was terrified watching my grandma get wheeled into surgery.. but I knew i was fine. I was happily waiting in the waiting room and not a single doctor hand on me. I just don’t know. I’ve tried therapists in the past and they didn’t help. I’ve been on medication and it didn’t help. Has anyone ever been able to get over these fear ?