oh dear

Today, I woke up like any normal Thursday and started to go about my usual day. The day started so normally, and has ended with a totally new level of worry. I placed my 8 month old baby under her gym while I went to pee on a stick. I'm due on my period around now, I'm unsure when exactly because I have had one postpartum period last month due to breastfeeding. We felt pretty cocky this month and risked the pull out method each time we did the deed. And now I sit here with two faint positive hpts and a swirl of scared emotions. All I can think of is how hard its going to be raising two babies who are 16 months apart. How do you ladies do it?! I'm posting anonymously because I am too scared of the backlash from some people. Just want to vent right now and re test tomorrow...