AF due today

She’s due to tear her ugly head today and I’ve been feeling so sure it was my month until today. I ovulated for the first time in months, used preseed, and have been feeling sooooo good lately. No mood swings that I usually get really badly before AF. But today I feel like she is coming and part of me wants to cry. I keep telling myself it will be a good thing if I’m not this month because my family is planning a big trip to Disney and I couldn’t go if I’m pregnant because I’d be due right around the time we plan to go. But still... I want it so bad!