Anxiety? Something else?

So my daughter is 10 weeks old and at this point I’m have the worst thoughts constantly I had anxiety before and it’s just gotten a lot worse. I talked to my mom about it and she just made it sound like I was trying to be a bad mom because I didn’t want to worry 24/7. Now I have this weird thing to wear I think if anything in our routine is out of the ordinary something horrible will happen. For example if I sleep somewhere else with her like a different room something bad will happen or if I don’t feel her a certain way something will happen. Anyone know what this COULD be? For all the women about to school me yes I’m 100% aware I should go to a doctors and yes I know people can’t tell me what it is.