This hurts

So I found out I’m pregnant and my boyfriend is telling me we can afford a baby right now that it would be best to have a abortion I’m broken about it...so then two days later at 4am his light from his phone goes off and I figure it’s his games right so I go to turn down the light and it is a text from another women saying

Babe!

Are you ok?

I haven’t heard from you in a while I was getting worried!

My heart sunk....he wakes up and asks what are you doing in my phone I said who is Jessica and he doesn’t know anyone by that name...are you kidding me she is saved in your phone well needless to say I threw the fact that he wants me to get a abortion cause of her and he said that’s not the reason he really meant we couldn’t afford it....and today he broke up with me saying he doesn’t want to be in a relationship so now I’m here pregnant and alone... I can’t afford a babe on my own and I don’t think it is fair to have a child I may resent do know if I would but I’m afraid I might what should I do.