So two days ago I saw a rainbow. After asking for weeks for a sign showing me or telling me we would get our rainbow baby. Well I finally say it. A beautiful rainbow outside of my window at work and it was beautiful!

Well, yesterday I took a test and got a VFL. Fiancé said it was negative. No surprise 😂.

Part of it is because hes afraid to get excited because we lost two little ones in August. We found out at our first ultrasound they stopped growing. So I understand why he’s so scared. I am too. BUT I can’t help getting a little excited because today I got a BFP! And it’s definitely there! Two pink lines!

I’m not sure if I should tell anyone until the first appointment. Like my parents and siblings. My moms heart was as broken as mine when she heard we miscarried our first time. So I don’t know what to do 😞 I want to scream to the high heavens, WE DID IT WE FINALLY DID IT AFTER ALMOST 36 months of trying this WILL be our happily ever after. Our rainbow baby. I want to tell them. I am terrified But I don’t want to do this alone. Obviously I have my wonderful fiancé but a mom is always a little different.