How do you get over the emotional pain after a d&c!?

So when I was in grade 1 (circa 7 years old) there was a girl who looked quite similar to me and we were in the same class. On Valentine’s Day some older kids delivered a huge teddy bear to our class and said it was for me from my dad. Now, my dad isn’t the type of guy to give lavish gifts or arrange surprises but when you are 7 you don’t really think things through 🤷🏻‍♀️ I walked around school holding on to that teddy bear the whoke day feeling so happy and proud and loved. When school ended though Britney’s dad came to fetch her and she ran up to me and told me the teddy was actually for her from her dad. I haven’t thought about this incident in years but I had a silent miscarriage at 14 weeks and a d&c; on the 9th of Feb and basically felt the same way in a certain sense - we had told everyone (family and friends) and I had really embraced the pregnancy, felt amazing and so ready to be a mom. While I was waiting for the d&c; to be performed they rolled my hospital bed next to another lady who was waiting to go in to deliver and I will never get over that - we were both in pain but she would be leaving with a bundle of joy and I would be leaving with more pain and a broken heart 💔