Soooo orgasmsss

Right so, i cant orgasm when i masterbate. I just get bored, i know its me touching me so im not feeling sexy and i dont have the ‘hotness’ to make myself excited.

When my boyfriend helps me... different story hehe. When he touches my clit in a patterned way, i get a weird feeling in my legs like waves and im really tired for a bit afterwards.

Ive been reading a couple of posts like this and it sounds like it should be a whole body experience and stuff and im just worried that what im experiencing isn’t really an orgasm