Relieved after break up

My boyfriend, my love broke up with me today. I love him more than anything but when he did it I felt relieved? And I thought to myself why do I feel so relieved? I mean yes I bawled my eyes out like a baby for hours, but at the same time I feel so calm. Why? We planned a future together. We were honestly the perfect in love couple on paper. Then everything went down hill. I'm so lost in emotions.

I care about him. And it hurts to know that I will never hug or hold him again, I'm having a bunch of mixed emotions. Anybody have any words of wisdom for me?