I don't want to

I don't want to turn 20 tomorrow. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I don't have my drivers license because my mom bever wants to practice with me and my dad lives in another state. I have never has a boyfriend and have never been kissed or had sex. I have never been to a high school sport game or house party. My teeth are ugly and need braces. I share a room with my mom because my brother has mental problems and makes us. I have been fat my Whole life and I have stretch marks all over my body I have never worn a bikini. I feel like i never got to be a teenager. I feel like a old looser.