Annoyed and need to vent

Been dealing with horrible back pain. Lost some of my mucus plug (not blood in it) have had period like cramps and have been super tired Everyone keeps telling me to go in. I’m hesitant to go in because I don’t want them to just send me home! My due date is Wednesday. And I’m not sure if I can take much more. Last night I woke up to go to the bathroom and literally fell to my knees. I couldn’t move. I felt like her head was sticking out. I told my grandma this morning about it and she told me to suck it up that I was being a baby, and that I didn’t need to be looked at. So now she has it planted in my head that I don’t need to go in😩 I just want this all done!!!! I asked my doctor to induce me at 40 weeks and she said no, because she doesn’t believe in it. So now I’m wondering if I can find an on call doctor who will!!!!