Heartbroken

Heartbroken when you have put yourself through fertility all the testing all the needle sticks with blood work all the appointments.... last week on Monday found out I was pregnant, my birthday on Tuesday, mine and my significant others anniversary/valentine’s day on Wednesday, Thursday was his birthday.... miscarried Thursday.... he lets me know just now that I’m not “the one” he’s going to marry some day. I have felt that way for a while but to have it confirmed.... trying to be all light hearted about it and pass it off not letting him see I’m just dying inside. I’m being cheerful, peppy happy self tending to his needs....can I get you anything else while I’m at the store etc.... I’m currently sitting in the car writing this through tears....