I have extreme anxiety and “flash backs” of my

Babies head being smashed. I will just lay there with him then get these uncontrollable visions or flashing images of a weight dropping on my babies head and killing him, or someone body slamming it. Its irrational, but it’s almost like a flash back on replay. I am not anxious about things when these episodes aren’t happening, but they make me sick when they are. There are no patterns to them. He is 2 months old. Someone help me

Right now i am imagining my husbands 50 lb dumbbell just falling on his head from 3-4 feet. Like my husband coming home and not paying attention and dropping the weights and they just SMASH on my babies head.