Difficult week

this week has been kind of hard, my boyfriend left for Tennessee and all I got was a day before warning. he's gone from Tuesday to Saturday, for championships. since he's busy with basketball and also doesn't have signal I won't be hearing from him until he's home. on Saturday we went to the movies and he kept taking my hand trying to pull it towards his crotch and I would keep pulling away (bc he was sitting next to our youth minister, plus I didn't want to grab him anyways). once we made it back to my house he stay

ed with me, but once we sat down he pulled a pillow over his lap and yet again wanted my hand to be there. i kept pulling away, and I ended up being the one who got in trouble bc you couldn't see where my hand was. i didn't want to grab him, and I really wanted him to get that through his head. I think he finally did bc he hasn't didn't do it last time we were together. I just honestly regret ever doing it in the first place, the first time I did it was an accident and I explained that to him but he still wants it. like yes I love you, but I'm not going to grab you if I don't want to.