Issues with my husband

Ok so I am trying to not be one sided in this post because I tend to post while upset and it usually drifts off towards the way I am hoping people respond so I don’t feel like an ass for going off.

I am continuously feeling like my husband doesn’t care about my feelings. I don’t feel like he notices me unless I’m naked or I’m helping him with his homework because h doesn’t pay attention in class, because I’m there and he figures that I will show him later.

I work 24hrs a week I’m taking 12+ credit hours for college (degree within site) and my son will be two soon. I have been so stressed lately that I had an anxiety or panic attack before my test last week. My husband was playing games on the computer my son was in the other room and I couldn’t figure out how to solve a problem and nothing was making sense. I couldn’t breathe I couldn’t focus I felt like I was dying. My husband never noticed because he didn’t stop playing his game. Once I calmed down I told my son and husband bye then headed back to school to take my test. Once I got to the parking lot it all happened again.

I feel like I do everything around the house and the way my son acts when I say to play with daddy so I can do my homework or because I’m making dinner makes me feel like he is basically ignored when I’m not home. This is also based on what my husband does when I tell him to play with our son(goes into the play room sits in a chair and plays games on his phone).

I’ve thought about leaving but my job is here I’m so close to my degree and my family is in another state. So if I left I would have to move to a different state and I’m not sure if I would get custody (my husband makes most of our money through disability which doesn’t affect his actual ability to work) and I am def not going anywhere without my son.

I’m constantly stressed and I am getting more and more stressed as time goes on I’m not sure how much more I can take. My son keeps me going and can melt the stress I have but when I’m not with him it all comes back.