once again... I'm a p.o.s

once again, im a piece of shit, ignorant, a bitch, a narc, I'm told to get out of my home, I fucking give up. a shelter is not an option, we have a 3 year old, im homeless without him, no job, no money. He makes me feel like it would be best if I were dead. God, I'm begging you to change my situation for the better. 💔 please Lord, I'm begging you. get my son and I in a happier better place.