Missed period for February

I’ve been trying to get pregnant for so 2 years now but I’m too scared to take a pregnancy test because I’m afraid of it being negative or period this month is just going to be late. I missed my period and I’m debating on if o should just take the damn test or wait it out.

Little signs like this are terrible like, it’s like a tease. And it really gets my hopes up and then crushes my soul to see negatives or spotting by the end of the month.

I really want children, it HURTS to go through it.