Marriage Issues...long. 😔

I’ve been with my husband for 11 years. Married 3 years. Started dating in high school. We’ve been through many ups and downs with family deaths, moves across the country, long distance for a few months, but we have always managed to keep our relationship good. Except -for the last year and a half. We moved to a new state, i miscarried, and a year of infertility. (Very hard on me). We constantly bicker, fight, go days without speaking, etc. I found out I was pregnant with our rainbow baby in December and things have been okay. The ‘honeymoon’ stage in our relationship is long gone, but I feel being pregnant should bring us closer. I can barely stand him at this point, and I’m pretty sure he feels the same. I’m sad and very lonely and can’t believe that after all these years of waiting for this ‘time’ in our lives that we are soooo disconnected and off. Just sucks. I needed to vent. Any input is appreciated.