My Ex's reaction to my pregnancy...

My ex is a man that I fell in love with years ago. He was kind, warm, goal driven. I've known him since I was 13 and we became a pair when I was 24.

We were separated because he had an older daughter (19 at the time) that hit and hurt my daughter (7 at the time). I couldn't take that and I left him. But, I still loved him with all my heart.

Our lives went their separate ways, but our paths always crossed. He was the only father that my, at the time, my 3 year old knew, and he played his role well. We also worked on a bunch of projects, including opening businesses and starting and operating non profits and all the leg work that goes into that.

In the past couple of years, he travels alot and we see or hear from him very few and far between. In that time, I moved in with my best friend and after some time developed a romantic relationship with him, after being celibate for years. Sad to say that relationship didn't with out due to his inability to stop smoking cigarettes.

Well, I'm pregnant by him and this is the second time. We lost our last one at five months and I delivered at home. All of this was kept out of the eye of the public, especially from my ex.

My ex, the man of my dreams, came and asked me about this pregnancy and the last one and I was shocked. I lied initially, because I'm ashamed and embarrassed. There dad is a weak person, that always cries and yells and swears and blames the world for that is wrong with him and his life. He's very negative, sloppy as a person, not a good follower or leader as he doesn't listen to people unless you're YouTubers, he's rude and is extremely clutzy.

I'm sad the baby is his and wish it was with my ex. But, sad to say, I stayed where I got attention.

Sorry so long. I have to get this off my heavy, heart broken chest. I fucked up...

Please, no negative judgements. I'm pregnant and sensitive and have already lost three babies.