feeling pressured

okay I haven't been horny, I'm on medications for depression and that's kind of killing my libido. I also am not entirely sure if I'm even attracted to my boyfriend physically. I understand sex is important in a relationship and I know it's been months since we have had sex. but today he really pressured me. even after I had told him I called the suicide hot-line literally the night before. He did hug me and comfort me. but like 3 minutes later he was trying to pressure me into doing something AGAIN. I felt like i would say no and he would try again. And guilt me again. Or say something about my body again. or comment how long it's been. or how I never even want to have sex. or say how blue balls he is. or ask me to do something. he just wouldn't drop it. and when I was like "okay, drop it" he got a little defensive. After a long time of this happening just off and on I couldn't take it and called him out. he genuinely felt terrible. We talked and I told him I wasn't mad at him. for sure I thought he would drop it. no comments on my body. no asking to touch me.nope he comments on my legs and thighs. then asks if he can touch my boobs. exhausted I say "sure" he asks if he can go under my shirt. I say "no." he says okay and keeps touching them. and then asks AGAIN. I love him to death. but this isn't the guy I fell for. My anxiety is driving me crazy. What do I Do? He used to keep me feeling stable and safe. Now I just feel really gross. and scared I need help. I feel like I have no value. I feel like I am meaningless. and that my well being means nothing. What do I do