Giving up on VBAC - Totally Distraught 😭😭😭

Sorry for the long post I just need a safe space to vent. My entire pregnancy I have planned for a VBAC. My first pregnancy was 18 years ago when I was 16. I had to have a section because my daughter was breech. I did go into labor at 37+5 and was 7cm within 6 hours of my first contraction. That being said my dr said I was a perfect candidate for a VBAC and she didn’t see any issues with it. However, she will not induce at all. She’s made this very clear to me from the beginning. Even some of the L&D; nurses at my hospital have expressed that I could be induced, but this is just not what my doctor does. I’m 39+2 today. I’ve been having contractions for months and quite painful contractions for weeks now. I was 1cm dialated at my 35 week appointment. Last week at 38+4 I was almost 2cm 50% effaced but my cervix is still extremely posterior. I have pretty regular contractions for hours at a time that just don’t progress my cervix. My doctor has made it clear that my options are to go into labor in my own or to have a C-section. The ONLY way she will intervene will be if my water breaks and she will only give me a very small amount of pitocin, and if it doesn’t help me I will have a section. Friday she called and left me a message. She was checking on me, letting me know she would still see me Monday at my appointment, but that she was going to be out Tuesday-Friday so if I go into labor then it will be another doctor that delivers me. My due date is Thursday. I am in so much pain from the constant contractions. I cannot even sit up without a burning stabbing pain in the right side of my rib cage in the front and back. I know I should be thankful that I’ve gone full term but I’m over it. I want to go into my appointment Monday and beg her for a section. I feel like a failure for even thinking about it but I am scared to death of having to go through a VBAC with a doctor I don’t know. I can’t stop crying. My husband doesntunderstand the big deal. He says it’s just a doctor who cares. I’m mad that he’s so unsupportive all of the sudden because this entire time he’s never understood why I wouldn’t just want the section. Sorry for the long post I just need someone to talk to that might understand.