Said goodbye to her at 20 weeks

It was too much time, and not enough all at the same time. I felt her move all the time, she had a name, she was loved, and now she is gone. Its been 2 weeks since my D&E; and I feel empty, angry, sad, heartbroken, lonely. None of it makes any sense and the only answers we have are that genetics just werent in our favor and we were the 1%. I dont know how to move forward. 😢😢😢💔😔