I know this is a weird way to look at it. I feel like I’m not happy in my marriage anymore. I don’t feel a connection with him anymore, and when I raise my concerns about our unconnected marriage... he doesn’t make effort to help get the connection back... I’m tired of being the only one trying. Some part of me is hoping that he cheats so I can free myself from this. No one will understand in my family why I would want to leave him because they love him and they don’t see the side of him that I see.

I feel stuck.... and I know many won’t understand why I won’t just leave... it’s not that easy......