just venting.

so, yeah! my depression really got the hold of me today. I just felt so alone and I kept thinking to myself that I will be better gone but at the same time I kept telling myself it’s not true.. but eh..

I’ve ran out of antidepressants and my therapist is out for the week, so I have to wait until they come back to get a refill. I just keep thinking to myself “what if it never gets better? do I really want to keep living like this?” I mean, yeah.. some days are good and I feel good but when it’s bad, it’s BAD, man! makes me wonder what the point of even trying sometimes! 🤦🏽‍♀️ *sighs*

ANYWAYS! I’m going to go to bed and hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day and I can just figure things out. I just feel so lost at times! I just need a breakthrough.