Should I start smoking again?

I stopped smoking weed 9 months ago, no smoke or drink, no drugs in general. I stopped for legal reasons and my family wasn’t too happy with how it was taking over my life. I have been doing good these past 9 months but I just love the feelings of being high and recently have been dealing with a lot and weed really helps with my anxiety and depression. A lot of my friends do and I just sit there as they smoke and just wanna hit. Should I get back on smoking or just stick with the plan I have.