40w today , checkup , cried in the office

Today I’m 40 weeks . Due today March 23, 2018 . Every day is so much harder , now I’m in like contestant pain . Even to sleep ...

In the office I explained I’m in a lot of pain . She asked saying it sounded like I’d like to be induced at exactly 41 weeks . I said if possible .. yeah . She checked my cervix and I cried , she couldn’t reach it , laid me back more and checked again . I full on cried . She felt so bad . I’d been check at 36+38 weeks no prob . Check at 39+3 uncomfortable , but I cried today .

She came in later saying she’s putting the request in , she asked if I’d like to come in one day before to put the balloon in so I could labor at home , and not be too long in the hospital . I said yes .

So baby girl I’m sorry to say if you don’t come on your own before Thursday , your being evicted . Mommy just can’t anymore . She’s in too much pain . Like literally my left kidney is hurting .

They also found traces of protein in urine today so idk . No induction or office visit has been set yet , it all needs to be approved and confirmed . Waiting for the email .

Thursday lll be 40+6

Friday I’ll be 41 w