Relationship

There’s a guy I like. And I’m not necessarily seeking a relationship. But I don’t wanna keep fooling myself. I’ve been under the belief due to circumstances that God had kept pulling me and a guy back together after we have tried to leave for no reason. No abuse or anything. And after I tried atleast three times I was brought back to him again. And since then we have been really close. But I also know he isn’t religious at all. He isn’t a major atheist or anything just isn’t religious. He’s indifferent. And I’ve just had the feeling. After months of prayer too that I should hold on and just wait for God to work in his life. I invited him to a church trip but that was a stretch and he said no. Idk if it’s because it was a week away from home with strangers or if it was because it was a religious thing. I keep praying. And I feel like God keeps just saying to me. Hold on. Don’t give up. And I pray asking Him to work in his life. But I’m also afraid that it’s just a voice I’m making up trying to make what is wrong acceptable. Any advice or thoughts?