I'm 17 and disgusted by the thought of losing my virginity.

I was sexually abused as a child, 6-8 years old, which I think plays a big role in this. I'm fully recovered, I believe; I found an amazing boy whom I'm hoping to marry. He's the only person who knows about my past, he's incredibly supportive and understanding.

I also want to have sex with him, very very much. But I've been raised in a strict Catholic environment.. we've been together for so long, I trust him like nobody else, I love him, most importantly; we've been though thick and thin, I mean it. We're so in love and never giving up. And I'm ready, mentally and physically, meaning I'm on the pill for 5 months, we also got condoms, but that's details.

I'm scared to think what it'd feel like not being a virgin. I don't know how to explain it at all. Most people in my school aren't, I never felt peer pressure. Seriously, it's about losing the label.

Please help me.