losing virginity

I have been cheated on in every relationship (especially w/ friends 😣) but luckily I’ve never done anything like a bj or sex. but I have been friends with this guy for a very long time and I find him as one of the most attractive people I have seen and all of my friends think so too 🤤 but I have given up on relationships completely. I have never given a bj and tbh I don’t even want to.. is it bad to lose my virginity to this guy? does that make me a hoe :/ please give advice since we are planning this for sometime soon