So.. i had been friends with this guy for almost two years and we were practically best friends starting in summer 2016. We told each other everything, did everything together, etc. I met his family, and soon dated his older brother. My guy best friend didn’t like the idea at all and soon We broke up Bc it just wasn’t working for us. But me and my guy best friend, stayed close.

Summer 2017 began, and he’d been acting really clingy and sweet towards me. Usually, he’d tease me and call me an “ugly toad” or “dweeb” but those then changed to “beautiful” and “you’re so smart”... and eventually, he gave me a puzzle to solve. A couple days later, I finally solved it, and it said “I like you (:”. I was in shock, but I also felt something towards him too.

He wasn’t aloud to date, as he is a grade behind me and his parents are pastors of a church. So we would just flirt and talk. We talked for about 3 months total. We were getting really close.. and I needed to tell him something important. I told him, and he got really pissed. Really really pissed. I thought I lost him for good. I let him cool off, and a couple days later, he came back.

A couple weeks later, my other guy friend told me he was madly in love with me. And I also really liked him... so I made a choice.. a really stupid choice..

I asked my guy best friend if it was okay to date this other guy. I asked him Bc he wasn’t aloud to date and nothing was really going anywhere. And he said yes. He told me to do what makes me happy, and at the time, that was it.

A couple months past, and we barely talked. Talked less and less... and it saddened me. And sooner or later, The guy I was dating had broke my heart in pieces.. I was a mess. I lost everything and I wanted to die. I tried talked to my guy best friend, but he ignored me.

6 months have past, and he still hasn’t talked to me. He won’t even look at me. I’m lost without him still. I need to talk to him again, I want everything back. I made a mistake, and I want to fix it. Someone help... please.

Update!!: he texted my friend last night asking about me and he ended up telling her he didn’t want to talk to me. ):