Why must I torture myself!?

Any ladies have any guilty pleasures during the 2ww?

I am insanely guilty of looking up my possible due date every month (example if i ovulate tomorrow i could be due right around Christmas!!🎄)!

I can't help it I get so excited and start fantasizing about when I'll announce, when I'll find out the gender, what season I'll be shopping for maternity clothes, watching pregnancy announcement videos on youtube for ideas. Every single month as soon as I ovulate there I am reading about due dates and fetal milestones 😞