So confused

I don’t feel like I’m important anymore to my so .. He works and then sleeps all day and on the game the rest of the time and I get no attention and when I bring it up he always tells me to shut the fuck up before I beat u up and if I ask why he’s with me if he doesn’t care he says then tell me the fuck to leave but don’t actually leave we are also been trying to conceive idk what to do I been looking for a job he made me stay home with my son so I can leave and pay my own bills but it’s so hard