D & e and Scared

I have my d&e; tomorrow and I’m scared and sad. My baby stopped growing at 7 weeks at a 11 week scan. I’ve never had one so I was hoping someone could share their experience. How long did it take you to heal? Did you go on to have a healthy pregnancy eventually? I do see a therapist but it’s all robotic answers like “it’s not your fault” and I have family and friends but no one seems to really know how I feel. It’s a lot of “I’m sorry” and “it’s not your fault” which I appreciate but I think hearing some stories like me will help me cope. I know it isnt my fault but anytime I’m alone even for a second I feel overwhelmed by emotions.