am I the worst?

so, about a year ago my SO was in a near fatal motorcycle crash, and is now an amputee with serious nerve pain issues.

well, his medications have all but killed his sex drive. when we do have sex (once, twice a month) he rarely finishes.

this is really weighing down on me... it kills my self esteem that he “doesn’t want to” or that he doesn’t cum. I know it’s not my fault, but I still take it personally...

am I the worst girlfriend ever for being upset that my gorgeous, wonderful man and I don’t get to have sex?

I also just want to add... we were only together 2 weeks before his accident so Ive never had sex with him prior to his accident, only after... but it’s been a running joke in our group of friends that he’s the horniest guy ever (I’ve known him since I was 18, I’m now 27)... that also weighs on my mind.

my friends all say it’s normal for me to feel upset but if I bring it up, I feel guilty for making him feel guilty. he is my perfect person, and his injuries and inability to have sex due to medications don’t change how I feel about him... but it definitely changes how I feel about me.